Enforcernitti

Joshua Degnan

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My Shattered Dream by Enforcernitti, literature

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My Shattered Dream

People say that the American dream Is something thats so easily achieved I've heard this all my life or so it seems Impossible is what it is to me No one ever believed in what I dream Or in what could of truly came to be Thought patterns of failure is within me Incapable of fulfilling the foreseen falling apart, Piece by piece my shattered dream having escaped me Backsliding in this journey Only faith pushes me to succeed No matter what is sacrificed It always ends in pain & strife Resulting in what is my life Alone with thoughts of suicide Death having brought inside my mind multiple times, dying inside Somehow, Im still ab

Shut the Fuck UP by Enforcernitti, literature

Thoughts in my Head by Enforcernitti, literature

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Thoughts in my Head

Digging through myself, I hide From pain and suffering that'll always find A way inside of my mind Locking itself behind all lies Yelling, Screaming, Decieving Torturing me in Isolation Feeding off of my inner being Tearing redemption apart with convictions Shoving my sin down my throat Guiltless, filling me with Bliss Consuming me with a gloat Guilty I can't take this My hypocracy will be the death of me Defenseless, exposed for my weakness This lack of Self-Control Manipulating thoughts of unforgiveness Knowingly the enemy bleeds my soul Spending to long in its clutches, Yet part of me hates it, While my other embraces it

Pride by Enforcernitti, literature

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Pride

Gripping my every thought, Eating me from inside. Assimilating everything I'm not, Like a virus sucking me dry. Taking control of my soul, Backed down to a stalemate. Spiraling myself down below, Sealing the depths of my fate. Seeing through the Real Me, Pride having staked me upon its fence, Praying before His Bloodied Deed, Feeding off my Eternal Essence... My mind fighting to breathe, Through feelings of emptiness. Illuminated temptations calling me, Replacing honor with guilt at its best. Arrogance feeding selfishness with defeat, Cheating myself with lies of deciet. Pride incantating my dignity, His Overwhelming Presen

Alone by Enforcernitti, literature

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Alone

All alone, submerged in disbelief, deserted by all means. My Soul shattered Piece by Piece, Finally being broken... Looking around for signs of Life, Needing to Breathe. Needing your love to survive, My heart ready to open... But you took away my life, being chosen of the few. Using these feelings for my demise, Insecurities breaking the news. All relationships gone cold and distant, my trust having been desecrated. Desires overwheliming my existence, exposing all that is forever sacred...

Choices by Enforcernitti, literature

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Choices

These chains shortening my Breathe, Taking everything that's left, Heartfelt stricken by disbelief, Begging for some subdue of relief, Your words having fallen through, Having no where to go, Pity having lost to the few, Losing myself to this blackened soul... Tearing me apart, Each and every way, Looking past afar, Pleading for mercy to stay... Madness forcing me to follow, Ways always filled with Sorrow, Crying out for the right way, Meer images reflecting decay, This darkness devouring my time, Shadows feeding on my reasoning, Praying for the light to shine, Blindingly, Striking like Lightning... Tearing me apart, Each

Set Apart by Enforcernitti, literature

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Set Apart

It was never asked to be, It all just came to me, One decision of all decisions, Can give you a purpose full of missions... It was up to Him, Taking the whole world by storm, Stretching Himself from limb 2 limb, Letting it all flow into form... With every precision comes a cost, No matter what ending up in loss, Which was ordained on that painstaking day, All things ever since gone gray... It was up to Him, Taking the whole world by storm, Stretching Himself from limb 2 limb, Letting it all flow into form... Set Apart...

Inside by Enforcernitti, literature

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Inside

Empathy tearing me apart, Secretly longing to know the way, Heartfelt emotions pushing me away, leading through corridors long since gone gray. Being tortured by things of the past, These Rude awakenings surfacing at last. Stretching myself beyond normal limitations, Ambivalence bringing about Severe Demonstrations... So many Choices, Clouding our every thought. So many Voices, Praying for all who are lost. Intimacy invading every thought inside me, past pain and sufferings breaking through running free, Obliterating fantasies locked here within, My Heart containing the vastness of sin... Darkness succumbing to every word and

Life by Enforcernitti, literature

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Life

Life is a dream that is a Lie, Until you go to the other side, You have to be strong, you have to be real, If you can't you will never Live. We live our lives day by day, Hoping to see the sun come up the very next day. We go to school, we go to work, All for what? It's all a Hoax... Heaven on High, Hell on down the Road, When it comes to it, Where are you gonna go? The Bible is the key to survive, preventing death a second time... So much hate so little time, Seems like the World wants you to die, Dreaming for riches, working as the poor, Hoping for more than just dust on the floor, Money seemingly everything we know of, Bri

Peace of Mind by Enforcernitti, literature

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Peace of Mind

Peace of mind, Seemingly so hard to find, Everywhere you go, Reaping whatever can be sown. What do you call Peace? Something not worth attaining, Always going the wrong way, Right in front of your face, Worth reaching for your own sake... Something so far and wide, Yet so untangibly dry, Never doing what it takes, for such deliverance, so high at stake. What do you call Peace? Something not worth attaining, Always going the wrong way, Right in front of your face, Worth reaching for your own sake... Omniscient Peace so Cynical! Your Idea of Omnipotence? Something so seemingly arguable...yes Yet always missing the point...

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Tears by Enforcernitti, literature

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Tears

There comes a time in life, That nothing can be right... Within a ring of a chime, Comes damnation of your Soul. Who would of ever have thought? This something so seemingly small, could shatter like a brick wall, Unleashing Omnipotence upon all.. Who asked you 2 wonder, Who asked you 2 care, Who asked for your prayer, My tears becoming your flare... Denying me of what is meant 2 be, Only ends your worthless existence, Despairing of relentless agony, Pleading for me 2 leave you be... MY pain means your pleasure? You are so full of It! All these mind games you play, Makes me more than just sick... Who asked you to wonder, W

Myself by Enforcernitti, literature

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Myself

Hey you Big God Judge me When Life's over Hey you yes you save me from myself... Life SHOVIT SHOVIT SHOVIT Pain SHOVIT SHOVIT SHOVIT Strife SHOVIT SHOVIT SHOVIT My Self SHOVIT ALL AWAY I think I helped myself To See, no one can save me Not even you... Hey you Can you help? I need Love To survive. See I try & look up feel Sublime? What a lie nooooooooow...*sighs* Life SHOVIT SHOVIT SHOVIT Pain SHOVIT SHOVIT SHOVIT Strife SHOVIT SHOVIT SHOVIT Myself SHOVIT ALL AWAY Yah, I think God helped me To See, No one can save me Unless I believe... Cuz I'm through when life breaks Me and what sinks in, Reality... Life S

Song of Myself by Enforcernitti, literature

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Song of Myself

If I were a color, I'd be red like the color of a Red Giant, On the brink of collapse and obliteration. Lover of Life in General, my guitar, and Jesus Christ. Who feels like a labyrinth to oneself, An Enigma to any one-way of thinking, As if a moments pleasure can be inadequate To what is truly needed inside, and mostly a slave to my own stalemate. Who fears the Ambivalence shared between one another, God Almighty, and the over thinking... Over analyzing that separates the body from the mind. Who would like to see a World Reflection of Heaven And all it's cracked up to be, Tranquility between the Heaven and Hell inside you and m

Tired by Enforcernitti, literature

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Tired

Tired, wavering, on the brink of Collapsing, Needing to feel alive again, Before it's time to let go and explode, All the hate no Soul should ever know. But then with realization of your worthiness, Being nothing more than a mere speck, Your way of Life being thrown into madness, Clarifying your rage as something yet to be met... This so called Fantasy, Representing the hollow Reality, That seemingly drains your Vitality, No longer being able to Dream... Until you can't take it no more, Pulling something so Omnipotent, That you could CRUSH your foes, All in a single Moment. Forgive and forget, Have mercy and let go, Is it so

Eternity? by Enforcernitti, literature

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Eternity?

Day by Day, Night by Night, Hour by Hour bringing Dark or Light, Hate admist our need for Peace, Alone, always known the Man for every need, Oblivously paying your own way, until forced begrudgingly to an eternal stay, Demons all around knowing not how they frown, Always wondering how the air is up there... Dark of Day and Night of Light, Just trying to be, feeling like I do, It doesn't matter now so why even fight? Cuz it'll be all you ever amount to... These bodies die but our spirits fly, Sensing a feel for supernatural highs, Flying within each and every fall, In all these neverending brawls, Leaving the Earth with no rega

Peace of Mind by Enforcernitti, literature

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Peace of Mind

Life by Enforcernitti, literature

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Life

Inside by Enforcernitti, literature

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Inside

Set Apart by Enforcernitti, literature

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Set Apart

Choices by Enforcernitti, literature

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Choices

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United States
Deviant for 18 years
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Current Residence: a place not even on an atlas/map
Favourite genre of music: Metal, rock, basically anything with guitar picking in it
Favourite photographer: don't have one
Favourite style of art: don't have one
Operating System: MS Dos
MP3 player of choice: never had one
Shell of choice: have no clue
Wallpaper of choice: have no clue
Skin of choice: have no clue
Favourite cartoon character: EarthWorm Jim
Personal Quote: Those who don't give a damn, are the ones that can help, those who do, can do nothing for me...

Favourite Visual Artist

don't have one

Favourite Movies

Donnie Darko

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Tool

Favourite Writers

don't have one

Favourite Games

Diablo II

Favourite Gaming Platform

they're all really good..its hard to say

Tools of the Trade

who cares...

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things that interest me, and becoming the fastest and heaviest guitarist around

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Enforcernitti

Sep 26, 2005

well then...#2 lol

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so what...I decided to humor myself! lmao well it worked..for a few minutes...but n/e wayz...I guess...I'll just update or something...lets see... still no new poems or n/e thing...really the whole band thing is moving slower and slower with each passing day...sometimes...well...maybe all the time...I find myself thinking what's the use? even though that really shouldn't be suprising...considering the non existant self esteem and confidence I have...yeah...so maybe...everyone else just seems to be doing really good...and I'm not... I'll be honest with you...since ur reading these very words that are being typed at this moment....I've attemp

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Enforcernitti

Jul 27, 2005

well then...

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A COUPLE OF REMINDERS B4 STARTING OFF... *need to get both Sibyl and Fabain on DA...cuz they both can draw really really good *need to add the taunt on Socom II "I hope your soul can R. I. P. because your resting in pieces bitch! HA HA!" or something like along the lines of that... A RANDOM INTRO TO START THINGS OFF! LMAO hmm..maybe this'll be better then it was on Gaiaonline? lmao...I remember...I sat there for 10 minutes at DeVry...typing away on my journal entry on there, just so it could tell me after doing all that, that, it "failed to connect to the pie server" what the hell? that was what I was thinking...I was really pissed on t

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goldenfire124

Dec 8, 2005

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Haha! Got you with a DA snow ball!

It's the start of..... Snow Ball Fight 2005-2006 !!!!
One rule to this game....
You can't hit someone who has already hit you!
Now... go out there and get as many people as you can, before they get you!

IrisHime

Sep 7, 2005

AW!!! thanks of adding me to your dev watch!

goldenfire124

Jul 30, 2005

I'd add all of your writing to my favorites, but I'll just come here and read them. They're all better then mine. ttyl ok.
~Erin

ForeignSin

Jul 7, 2005

Hey Joshy^^ Watch me please!!!

Enforcernitti

Jul 27, 2005

oh yeah..one more thing...I just want to apologizing for not getting on here for the past few weeks...and watching over you...as you asked...I just figured out how to do that finally but still...I apologize...but I'm watching over you now ok? :-D take care girl...love you

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ForeignSin

Jul 27, 2005

Love you too man! Hope to talk to you more soon!

Misantropia

Jul 2, 2005

Hi Joshua!

Welcome to deviantART!
I hope you enjoy your stay.